The grey washes over me like a torrential downpour in winter.
The heavy weights around my heart hold me immobile in my chair.
My mind is clouded with thoughts of dreams destroyed.
I mourn the loss of what never was and what will never be.
I know the sun will rise again, but today, I will live in the blackest of night.
Feeling the pain, hurt and loss course through me like a burning poison.
Today, I am lost.
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Why so sad? Hope you are alright. ♥
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I’m fine sweets. Just feeling the loss of something that was very important to me. It’s not gone forever, I hope, just changed. We all change and grow all the time. Things can’t always remain the same and we have to respect the needs of others too. Just wanted to get the feelings out on paper. 🙂
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Totally understand. Thus the many notebooks under my bed. 🙂
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*hugs* heartbreaking
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Thanks. I felt it yesterday, needed to get it out and decided to share it today. I am already feeling better, I just needed a day to feel bad. Today, I will feel better and tomorrow, better still. Thank you so much for the lovely thoughts. xo
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You’re welcome, Miss A. Xo
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I feel ya girlie! Comforting hugs and wishes that each day brings more and more light your way. 💜
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The light that I receive from my friends will get me through even the worst of times. Thank you for being part of that light. xoxo
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Amen to that! 💋
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Did the passing of Merle Haggard affect you this deeply? (Hugs)
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No Sir. While I acknowledge his loss, I wrote this yesterday. I think we all have dark days, and I just wanted to write about mine yesterday. The hugs always help Sir. Thank you. xoxo
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Xoxo
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?? Hugs & Love ❤
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Feeling the love. Thanks my friend. xoxo
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I hate the lost days. The grey days. Sending you hugs sweetie.
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Yes, we all have them. Today is already looking sunnier. Some days we just need to embrace the dark, knowing we will seek the sun tomorrow. Thanks for the support. xoxo
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Yes we do. Always here. 💜
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❤️
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That is EXACTLY what I needed my friend. xoxo
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Imagine it my arms my precious lil sister. Tight!
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That is what I imagined the second I saw it. xoxo
Although, you could squeeze a little tighter, I like pain you know? 😉
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You are so right my love. Sometimes things aren’t gone forever, just changed. Sometimes loss and change makes way for new experiences, new people, new sunshine.
And in the spirit of this post, and in honor of the loss of someone that was a piece of the sunshine for many people, I would like to off this as a Song of the Day, for all those that have great memories of fond moments/people/places in the past. Definitely my favorite Merle Haggard song of all….
Thank you, as always, My Amelia
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Sending hugs to you, Amelia. One must sink into it and feel in order to move forward.💜
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Absolutely perfect advice and SO true. Thank you friend. 💋
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Hey there sexy x
Cuddle up and hide away
Remember tomorrow’s another day
It might be hard, take a while
But you’ll find it again, your loving smile
Hugs & Kisses Amelia, thinking of you xxx
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This put a HUGE smile back on my face, you sexy, sexy man! 💋
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Good! It’s no fun spanking a sad Amelia 😉
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Start spanking and I guarantee I won’t be sad anymore. 😘
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Hugs. What a great write. Your readers can feel the heroine’s pain, I love this. Mucho hugs and kisses. Please write more of these in the future.
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We all have to take the bad with the good, don’t we? And, when we experience the bad, it leads to extra hugs and kisses. So, pucker up my friend and get your gorgeous face over here! 💋
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Hugs, smiles, kisses, a cup of tea and a biscuit; whatever you need! 💜
Ash
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Thank you SO MUCH! What I really needed was just to feel for a day, even if that feeling was dark. The sunshine is quite beautiful today, especially when I know there are lovely people like you on my side. 🙂
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Beautifully painful
Changes can hurt
Great write 💕
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Thank you VERY much for the lovely comment. Yes, change can hurt, but it is often VERY necessary too. 🙂
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I agree.. Silver lining in there somewhere 😊
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Always! 🙂
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Sending hugs, hope your day is brighter today. Sometimes you just have to feel it through head on
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Thank you Very Much. You are absolutely correct, sometimes you just have to feel. 🙂
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