missameliaandsir

Thoughts on an ever-evolving life

Archive for the month “April, 2019”

Just When I Think

Just when I think
I’ve got it under control
It escapes and tramples me into the ground

Just when I think
The ache has subsided
I find myself battered, bleeding and gasping for air

Just when I think
The battle is over
Another bomb explodes and all hope is lost

Just when I think
I can survive without
I’m reminded its part of my heartbeat, my breath, my happiness

It hurts, just when I think

Lies

It’s but a shadow
An illusion
A whisper of smoke

It’s only a memory
A remembrance
A word never spoke

It’s but a wish
A hope
A reoccurring dream

It’s only a fantasy
A nightmare
A soundless scream

Dying to Desire

DAMN!!! DAMN!!! Double DAMN!!!

I am dying to desire to write again. I have tons going on in my life. I still have naughty stories and fantasies hiding in my twisted mind. I even have extra time suddenly available to me. BUT, it’s just not there!

Since I began taking medication for my depression, I have found the movies that used to play in my head have become slow and foggy. They still play, but I just can’t quite see them clearly anymore. I understand this is partially due to the fact that I am no longer spinning out of control. That is a good thing, but part of me misses the flooding of inspiration.

I LOVE feeling healthy. My relationships with everyone, except my mother, have greatly improved. My children and I are now closer than we have ever been. Professor and I are stronger than I ever imagined possible. Friendships are strong, loving and feeding my soul. We all seem to have a much better understanding of how we have affected each other. Clear and open communication has been key.

I know it is selfish to want it all, but I still do. I want to be healthy, happy and content. I also want to have the feeling of euphoria when my fingers flew and produced something spectacular that I almost had no control over. Guess I’ll just have to keep trying.

…But I Do

You can’t see
how their hungry eyes watch you
from the second you enter the room,
can you?

You won’t ever feel
the magnetic attraction
they all have for you,
will you?

You aren’t aware
that you drive them insane
with swelling desire,
are you?

You haven’t ever considered
you were enough
for anyone,
have you?

You don’t have
any idea
how unbelievably sexy you are,
do you?

…But I do

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